1) The longer you don't communicate with someone, the harder it is for you to communicate with that person the next time you see them. I have a friend that i haven't spoke to or seen in a long....long....long time. I try to call him but it was hard for me.

2) I am continuing to figure out what God is doing in my life. I am literally learning every day that God ALWAYS knows what he is doing, and we need to figure out what His will is. I have to repent every day and I realized that God does forgive you if you set your heart right towards Him and be honest with Him. Only God's grace, mercy and love can keep you in your right mind everyday, and that brings me to #3.

3) If you don't know, I was in a relationship with a Vietnamese girl. We have not been together for about a year now. She has her story and I have mine, but ultimately God did not want us to be together (you can read my other blogs if you want to know more about it). I got her a Vietnamese bible one day because I want her to get to know Christ personally. Anyway.....occasionally we still talk sometimes. I pray for her a lot and when I do pray I have a lot of dreams about her. So much that I have to write them down and I put it on my flash drive. Months ago I thought that I was over her, but I truly realize that I am not. So many nights I would really....literally.....cry out to God to take this pain away. Thats how I feel it is. PAIN...and I still cry out to Him. I really don't know what to do but to cry out to God. These dreams that I have, I wonder every day if they are from God or is it just my flesh. So I pray even more and ask God what the meaning of these dreams are. This situation is really bothering me... and I know that this is distracting me from my school work. This spring semester has to be the worst semester I had. I only take 3 classes...and I felt like giving up many time. Thought about just not going to school. Even right now I came on the computer to print out things and to take a quiz right now. But right now I feel like crying. Crying to God.

4) Like i said before I fell like giving up on school. People say to me that I am just complaining. But I tell you that I am telling the truth.  I probably prayed and cried more during this time than in my whole life...and I am not exaggerating. I wish I can say more...I just don't like what is happening, but I know that good will come out of this.

5)I have a great love and respect for asian people. I really don't know why, maybe God put something in my heart to be connected with these people. Most of my friends are asians, especially from Vietnam. I respect them a lot and love to be around them...and currently trying to learn Vietnamese. One day friends from high school wanted to get together and go bowling...and it happened to be on that weekend that one of my asian friends birthday was that weekend ( by the way he is engaged to a korean girl). Any way he was looking miserable all week and his fiancee told me that he wasn't planning on doing anything for his birthday. So... while we're at the bowling ally, he doesn't bowl with us, he just sits there acting like everything is fine...obviously not. So I go to him and ask him what is wrong. He says " Nothing just tired." I didn't believe a word he said. Then some other friend came with the cake and we surprised him. He was happy a little bit but I can see that he is still not happy.. So I pulled him a side and spoke to him privately. I told him if there's any thing he wanted at the bowling ally...food, bowling shoes to bowl, drink, anything just let me know and i will get it for you. I knew he didn't eat anything all day and had no money... he said  that he was fine but a few minutes later he was at the food place with his fiancee and text me on my phone saying that he was hungry. I go over to them I told him and his fiancee to get what ever they wanted and I will pay for it. Some of the other friends were leaving but some of us stayed. So I told them to get some bowling shoes and I will take care of it. I told them to come bowl with us. Now he was happy and had fun. I think he wanted to cry because he came to me telling me how much he appreciated it.....and he gave me a hug before we left.

I wish I had more time to blog but I will be back to blog more. I feel better now that I got some of this out. I hope every one will have a blessed day!!!

HI EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!  I know I havent been on in a long time I had a lot of things to do in the past few months dont reall have time now to explain but I will get back to you guys shortly.

My Thanksgiving Holiday week was BEAUTIFUL. I was happy that I got to spend time with my other brothers and my one sister and with my other cousins I rarely get to see. I never thought that I would get to enjoy that week like I did. But this what I want to say. I played with my two 8 year old brothers and my 12 year old sister along with our two female cousins. They are sisters and one of them is 5 and the other is 7. But every time I see them (my cousins) they never talk. They are not dumb or mute, they just don't like talking to anyone. I don't really know the reason they don't talk to anyone. Maybe they are shy or scared. I don't see them much but when I do, I never hear their voices. But when we were playing outside and running around (and they never get tired) I heard, for the first time in my life the voices of my cousins. They said my name and started laughing and started jumping on me when I was sitting on the ground (trying to catch my breath). When I heard their voices I thought Jesus was coming back! I didn't know how to respond to them speaking. They had the most beautiful voice I heard in children. I almost started to cry with tears of happiness and joy. That was on Thanksgiving day. They didn't want me to leave so I stayed with my dad that night into the next day. Then they come over to my dad house and we played all day that day. I had to go back home to Rochester because I had to work that night. They still didn't want me to leave and they started crying. But I told them that I will see them again. We are family. I don't really know how they felt on that day, but my heart was over flowing with joy and happiness